Betrayal...Up until recently, I never doubted my ability to make friends... Never once cared for them... Never once cared if I HAD a friend... Much less a bestfriend forever thing... And I never thought I would be *THIS* hurt at the mere fact that I allowed my once so-called "friends" to come close enough to inflict that kind of hurt to me... Especially after all the successful attempts of long-gone friends before them...
I've watched, memorized, and loved so many faces in my life, thinking "Hey! I have a friend in you..." or "you". Being so naive to think that just because they smiled and spoke to me, doesn't mean that they are my friends or that they gave a damn about me!
Maybe some did. Maybe some *DID* care... and gave a damn about me... But they sure aint here now to speak to me... To give a damn about me... To *listen* to me... That's all I want... Someone to be there for me... Someone I can talk to... Someone who will just sit there and listen...
They don't have to give a shit... They don't have to care... Hell... They don't even have to LIKE me... They just have to pretend they like me or they give a damn or whatever... Because frankly, at this point in my life... I don't care anymore...
So... why am I crying tho...? So why am I longing about this...? So why am I *THIS* goddamn hurt about this...? About being alone...? About being friendless...?
It's because my love was used and abused. My trust was betrayed by those closest to me... And I can't do jack shit about it because I would *NEVER* hurt, use, abuse, or betray ANY of them...
Tearful
Devious Comments
I'm here for you, really! And I DO like you, and I DO care.
Survivors, remember?
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"Danger! Bad MoFo in da house!" -~AthenaNekoAstraea
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I know I'll survive and all that... I just... sometimes... The thing is I am going through the stage where I look for who I am and settle everything so I can have a good life thing? Well... I can't do that if I don't have SOME support from my friend... You know...? So yeah...
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[+] The Life And Times Of A\'Vriil - [link] [+]
[+] Awesome Club, Raw Em0tion - [link] [+]
[+] The bestest sisseh is Twilite! - [link] [+]
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Life is just a masquerade. In dept to myself but I can't pay...
And I know what you mean. I'm here to back you up deary, I promise! And I'll beat the hell out of anyone that gets in your way of bieng what you want to be! ...even your ebil bunny...and I don't generally attack innocent animals...
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"Danger! Bad MoFo in da house!" -~AthenaNekoAstraea
I'm currently available for commissions! See my portfolio [link] and my journal [link] for more info
HA! That bunneh is no innocent! Ebil! EBIL!!!!
And thank you... THa tmeans a lot to me... Knowing I can count on you to ever be there for me if I need you be... *hugs tight, almost cutting her air off* I WUFF J00
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[+] The Life And Times Of A\'Vriil - [link] [+]
[+] Awesome Club, Raw Em0tion - [link] [+]
[+] The bestest sisseh is Twilite! - [link] [+]
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[+] The Life And Times Of A\'Vriil - [link] [+]
[+] Awesome Club, Raw Em0tion - [link] [+]
[+] The bestest sisseh is Twilite! - [link] [+]
*hugs back, even though she's kinda suffocating* I just wish I could actually be THERE for you, ya know?
I wuv joo too ^_^
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"Danger! Bad MoFo in da house!" -~AthenaNekoAstraea
I'm currently available for commissions! See my portfolio [link] and my journal [link] for more info
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Life is just a masquerade. In dept to myself but I can't pay...
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[+] The Life And Times Of A\'Vriil - [link] [+]
[+] Awesome Club, Raw Em0tion - [link] [+]
[+] The bestest sisseh is Twilite! - [link] [+]
And where do you live again? Cuz like I said I live in BEGAS! j00 kno... Sin City xD
And I'll be there for you... Even if its just in spirit...! And I need to study this spell that allows me to enter YOUR dreams... SO I can give you subliminal messages xD
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[+] The Life And Times Of A\'Vriil - [link] [+]
[+] Awesome Club, Raw Em0tion - [link] [+]
[+] The bestest sisseh is Twilite! - [link] [+]
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