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Dear Friends

Sat Jul 21, 2007, 3:24 AM
By the time you all read this, I would have long left this Earthly realm. I'd be somewhere between heaven, hell, eternity.

I don't condone suicide yet I feel that it is my only option, considering everything failed in my attempt to find help:

> Self Mutilation
> Friends
> Family
> Professional Help
> Anti-Depressant

Too much has happened in the past few days and I truly believe that I can no longer sit here and control my demons.

For once, they have won.

Loving someone shouldn't be *this* painful.

Caring for someone shouldn't be *this* hard.

Being everyone's rock, tether, their tool to keep escaping insanity... That is me. I played the role so well that it became me. Yet... no one seems to be ther when I need a rock, tether, tool to keep escaping insanity...

Silly me...

I was just a nobody...

I wish you all the best of luck in life... I love you all...

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: "Sacrifice" t.A.T.u

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:icontwilite-crescent:
Oh no j00 don't sisseh

You can't leave me here with no one to lick whipped cream off of! :glomp:

Sisseh...I love you. j00 are one of the few people in this world that I can't help loving. ;_;

But...in the same breath...I understand. And cause I love you, I want you to be happy. And I guess if it makes you happy...

But I also greatly contest it! >_< j00 have to be there when I get married so I can throw the bouquet at your face! =3 And...well...j00 know. I love you, and I wanna be there when you get married too. And I want your kids to call me Auntie Twi!!! And then my kids can call you Auntie Neko...and then we can work together to hide our insane ways from our poor innocent childrens ears!

:hug: I luff j00, j00 h00r!!! :heart:

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:iconhelewidis:
but what exactly is your problem? you wnat to love? love! you want to care? care! or... do you want to do that to get those in return? if so, I must tell you, people are like dogs, they smell intentions from the distance and will not give you what you want if you only do it for attention and a feedback in the same amount.

If I were you I'd look for other options, rather than self-mutilation... Have you tried falling down, failling others? let others see you need help. if you don't they will never have the chance to be your rock! I hope you get this in time or, if you tried but didn't work out, read this and try do other things before trying suicide again... :smooch:

if you need to talk, send me a note, dear! I also thought of suicide for a long time, too... so please, talk with me!

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:icongreenspoon:
:hug: I hope you'll change you're mind. Please don't do anything like this.

I know I don't know you, but there ARE people who care about you and are willing to help you out in your hard times. :heart:

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:iconscaramoushe:
please don't! there are people that love you and people who care about you and if you talk to them you'll realise just how much they can help. don't do anything like that, please!

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:iconkael-thas-sunstrider:
Loving Can Be painful, More painful than anything else we can suffer in life, or in death.
I know you may not have had anyone who was there for you, to be your rock, to help comfort you when you needed it, but If you need someone to be there for you then I'm here.
To Listen when you want to talk, to support when you want comfort and to make sure your not alone when you feel you are. Just Wanting to offer a hand in the darkness you've been feeling. :hug:

I have been tempted by Suicide myself at times, many times I'm sad to say.
:hug:
AJ

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Is that what happens to us? A life of conflict with no time for friends, so that when it's done, only our enemies leave roses...
:icondjsolis:
I've slowly learned that you can't always be someone else's rock. There are many people willing to take from you as long as you're giving and never return the favor when you need it. Sometimes it's from malice, sometimes it's just bad timing.

I think the most tragic thing about life is sometimes people don't show others they love or care about them until it's too late. I've never met you, and were it not for CoF, I would never know you existed. But CoF is around, and I do know you exist, and if I learned you've committed suicide and I didn't do anything to prevent it, I would still mourn for you.

There are already so many who are emotionally dead - who waste their lives because they don't care about others. You're different, and the world needs more people like you who feel more fully, who understand the pain of the world, because people like us and who can make differences.

Suicide is always a choice, but you never have to decide now. Please, talk to me or others from CoF. We are not professionals, but many of us have been through hard times and walked down the long trail of dust and came back. We've opened our ears, our hands, and our hearts for you.

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"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."
~Matthew 5:4
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:iconrebis:
Please let us know what's wrong, don't hurt yourself their are people who will care for you and help you work things out. Just give us a chance. If you want someone to talk to, send me a note, sweetheart! So please talk with me or someone else on dA.

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The man who has confidence in himself gains the confidence of others. -Hasidic Saying
:iconc0rdita:
Hey, life isn't always perfect, even though you try..
You are not alone, -As long as there is at least one person to care for you..
and as I read in your journal there are a few...

Keep your head up! - I'll pray for better days for you, you deserve it.

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:iconexcel03:
Life isn't always fair or nice to alot of people so you should just keep your head up and keep on walking and not commit suicide.

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